Tuesday, November 2, 2010

stress

I feel like everything I have been stressing out about the past few weeks just all came flooding back. The main thing is money! I am tired of never having any. It is more than just that! I went over my cellphone mins, so we owe an extra $100 on our cell phone bill! It just always seems to be something. When we can't even make ends meet with our regular bills and something happens everytime to just make is so much worse! Last month we started an allotment for our rent and they took all of rent out on the 1st pay check. THEN on the 15th took half of rent. They are suppose to take out half on the 1st and the other half in the 15th. Really? So I paid for rent and a half? Awesome. Because we have so much extra money to throw around! Thanks a lot! WTF? So we had to take money out of savings that I have been trying to save for Christmas. It seems like every Christmas all we have money for is to go home and that's it. I really wanted this Christmas to be different! I really wanted to get Westin something nice for Christmas. I already have plans to get him a big boy car bed when we get our income tax, but I really want to be able to get him a big gift for him to unwrap under the tree! And I wanted to do stuff when we are home. Go to the New Orleans zoo, go to lunch with friends, go shopping on Black Friday, Westin really needs some winter clothes! He has 2 pair of jeans and a few shirts. Most of his 18 months shirts are too short. It just would be nice to not have to stress about money for once during the holidays. And I am driving home this weekend, that will cost me $200 in gas that we don't have! Then Roy will fly in when he gets leave so that is more money we don't have. I am really stressing out! Tara and I are in this pepper class that is for newcomers to Ft. Bliss and we go out for lunch then tomorrow we are going shopping and it is a lot of fun. But not when you don't have any money :( It sucks and I don't know what to do. Today at the Pepper class they talked about jobs and I am really thinking about looking into that. I haven't worked since I was prego. I have been home with Westin since he was born. I don't mind working, but it never seemed to work out with Westin's heart condition and moving, so now I think it is time to start looking for a job. And I am hoping I can get one onpost and that way I can put Westin in daycare onpost. The post is really growing so their are defiently jobs opening up, I just hope I can get one! So when I get back after the holidays I am going to start looking for a job! It isn't always as easy at it seems now in days. It is hard to get a job now! I am hoping my Associates degree will help. I dunno how much it will help, but it is something! But I have no idea what to do until/if I get a job

4 comments:

  1. Jaders, i bet (and hope) it will all fall into place. I really really do. :)

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  2. OK girl. That does stink! If it helps at all...1) Do you have something similiar to the Navy-Marine Corps Program that could offer you a no-cost/hardship loan? 2) What about a Seasonal Job? Even if it's at the PX or mall, giftwrapping, dog walking, babysiting, etc. 3)How about Craigslist or the Post Freecycle for the Big Boy Car Bed?...Not only does that sound like something that others might post, but you could even explain your situation & story along with your request. 4) Same for the clothes & or if you have a Mommmy Meetup.com or Military Moms type group, you could cordinate a Kids Clothes Swap! 5) Lastly, even just a trip to the Family Service Center to talk it all out might prove to be helpful. Hope That Helps!! XO

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  3. Jade, I'm so sorry! I know how it feels. I finally feel like I am getting my head above water but it has been a long time coming! Westin is so young though that he honestly won't care about not getting a big present. The good thing about that age is they are just as happy with the box as they are the toy! Good luck with the job hunting.

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  4. Sorry about the stress! I remember those days well and it seems our extra whoppers went on the credit card and that seemed to just grow! Things will get better I promise! Julie's right about what makes kids happy, especially when they're little. I remember the penny's yelling because they were pinched so hard and often. It seems I'm telling my daughter and her hubby the same thing these days - to make a game out of saving. I just heard of a web site called www.mommysavesbig.com for lots of coupons and deals. Hang in there and good luck with the job hunting!

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