another outfit

So let me just say that yesterday while I was out and about (shopping duh!) wearing my new dress, I got a few compliments. I was very surprised! It was nice that someone noticed my awesome skills at putting an outfit together. And one compliment I got from a lady working at Old Navy so I assume she knows about clothes so that was really cool. And then other compliment was when I was at Target (once again, duh!) and this lady saw my dress on the hanger and she said seeing me in the dress made her want to get it. WHAT?! That is awesome and I am pretty sure I should get some sort of discount or compensation from Target for helping them out. Just saying. Since pretty much most of my money goes there anyways. The dress defiantly made me feel like I could do anything in it. I wore that dress with confidence!

I do have anything outfit to post. I was able to take pics of it yesterday.

 I love the pop of color the necklace gives. If wouldn't of added this necklace I would be a blob of navy. I love this dress and wear it often. It is my go to dress. And it has packets and i love that. Love a dress with pockets!.

dress from Target, jacket from Banana Republic outfit, sandals from Target and necklace from Target

 I love how I can button up the jacket and the dress looks like a skirt and it gives the outfit a new look. I love how Audrey post pics of how you can wear a dress in many ways.
Once again I try not to take myself too seriously so I have a silly photo to post

Isn't that funny? I thought it would be funny to get an action shot. This show why I was not a cheerleader in high school. But we had fun on our mini photo shoot.

Very First Fashion Blog

Although my first attempt at photographing my outfits was not very successful, I did get a few good shots so I decided to go ahead and start my fashion blog :) I wanted to start a fashion blog after I found a few fashion blogs on pinsterest and I love how they gave me so many great ideas. So I wanted to capture what I have learned about putting outfits together and posting them here so I get a better visual of what my outfits look like. I use to try and write down outfits that go together but that never worked b/c I am such a visual person I have to see the outfit so I thought this would be a great idea. Plus I can track my progress at getting better at this whole making outfits thing. I use to throw on a top and bottom and neutral shoe to match and be done. Didn't think too much more about the outfit. But I have learned some great tips for making my lame top and bottom into an outfit which I love. So lets get started at the first outfit (feel free to laugh at any of the pics. I try not to take myself too seriously and I think the photos show that :))

 I LOVE this dress. I bought this at Target a few days ago! Yes I am a Target junky. I would say about over 50% of my clothes (shoes included) are from Target. Back to the dress, I fell in love with this dress when I first saw it. But I wanted to be responsible (ugh Hate being all grown up and responsible) and wait until payday and make sure I had the extra money after my bills were paid. Well come to find out later that day it was payday. I'm not sure how that happened that I completely forgot and thought payday was later in the week but I did not question it and went back to Target a few days later for the dress. Well when I went back the dress was on sale! Jack pot! So in an effort to make an outfit  I bought this cute necklace. I don't have necklaces or bracelets or earnings or anything like that. So I am trying to keep outfits in mind and buy accessories to match. And I bought this blue jean jacket a few years ago and never wear it. I don't know why. It just never seems to go with anything I wore. So I saw an outfit where the sleeves were rolled up and loved the look. And now I like the jacket so much more! I also already had this belt but never wore it either. It was too long and it did not have enough holes in the belt. But I found a way to tie the belt in a knot which gives the belt a new look. LOVE! And I just paired the outfit with some white sandals which I wear a lot!

 It was kind of awkward just standing there while my friend took pics so I had to spice it up a little bit :)

And here I am showing how the dress flows! :) Okay so the dress I got from Target, jean jacket from New York &; Co., sandals from Target, nacklace from Target and the white belt came with a shirt I bought many years ago I cannot remember.
 I just love this outfit and most of the stuff I already had in my closet that I didn't use. Where did I wear this outfit? To my sons "preschool" (he is 3 so he is in a preschool at a learning center) for orientation. I looked like one hot mamma! I liked the jacket with this dress b/c the straps are bright pink spaghetti straps and the "preschool" is at a church so I didn't want to show my straps so this jacket was a great solution. Will defiantly be wearing this outfit again! Maybe next time with some wedges for a hot date!

Why I will never get married again

I keep telling people I will never get married again and they never believe me. I may still be young and have plenty of time to marry again, but there are many reasons why I will never get married again. This doesn't mean I will never be in a relationship again, or never trust a man again or that I am a man hater. I just don't see why it is necessary to get married. I would probably say the main reason I feel this way is mostly b/c of money. It is costing me way more money to get divorce than it did when we got married Justice of the peace. Let me start from the beginning. I started taking over the car note once I got a job and Roy (my ex) started paying me child support. So when I went to pay the first car note online the website said I could not pay an online payment and I needed to call them, so I did. Come to find out Roy was behind on the notes and also had late fees so my first car note payment I pretty much paid 2 car notes that cost over $600. I did not have extra money laying around but I had to pay it. So I asked Roy for the extra money that I had to pay b/c I was only suppose to pay the car note from that month not his late fees and paying previous months. He said he didn't have it and to no big surprise I never got that money back almost a year later. He also took over the credit card payments on our credit cards that were originality in my name but I added him to the accounts to help his credit. And he was the one who charged on the accounts so he said he would pay them. Well come to find out he stopped paying on the accounts and also charged over $600 one month after he stopped paying on them. And when I asked him about those charges he said he "flipped out after he found out he was going to Iraq" I guess he felt that was enough reason to charge on a credit card that he stopped paying on a few months prior. So he said he was going to get everything handled for the divorce well then he deployed so it got put to hold. Then I found out we needed to file child support in the state where the child lives which is a different state where he is living so he could not do that part of the divorce in Tx. We went back a forth about it and he said he was gonna talk to this guy, make an appt for this, blah blah, but nothing ever got done. So I took it into my own hands to get the divorce done. That way I could get it done my way and could control what I wanted in the divorce. But I also had to pay for it. I also had to pick up where he left off in the credit cards and pay a couple hundred dollars just to get them turned back on since there was no payment on them for a few months. All this coming out of my pocket when I never charged on the damn cards. I was not the one who "flipped out." Guess what? Sometimes I feel like flipping out too but I can't b/c I am responsible for my actions and can't afford to "flip out" So I found out in the lawyers office that pretty much that debit that he charged was half ours b/c we were married. How fair is that? So let's break it down how much I have had to pay over the last year due to my soon to be ex husband.
$617.72 for the late car note
$231.00 on the discover card to cut is back on
$50.00 month of Jan on discover card
$100.00 on chase but I need to pay over $400 to keep it going to collection agency
$970.00 to the lawyer which I will prob end up paying him more by the time this is over.
=$1968.72
So this divorce will prob cost me over $2,000 by the time this is all over and I will not see a dime of it back from soon to be ex husband. All he has paid is child support that is only for the support of his child not the extra cost that I had to pay due to his dumb ass. The money is just money but the fact that his morals suck so bad to think it is okay to charge on a credit card he stopped paying on and now has fucked up my credit just shows what a dumb ass he really is. But the real problem is Westin. I will get over this as time passes and I will have to deal, but Westin is stuck with him as a father and that saddens me the most. The fact that Westin's father never bothers to call him except on Christmas and his birthday or if I need to talk to him about the divorce he asks to talk to Westin. Never ever goes out of his way to call and make sure Westin is doing okay and that I cannot live with nor be okay with and I will beat myself up for reproducing with someone who does not do all the things a father should. I understand he is in the military so he does not get to see him every other weekend or even once a month but I believe that he can def do a whole lot better than seeing his son twice a year for only 10 days on each visit. I'm lucky Westin is young. But soon will come the questions. And I will not know how to answer them. And I will feel the pain of not picking a better father for Westin.

so I made this list about a year ago of things I want to do. Some things were long term some were short term. But the reason for the list was to do things I wanted to do. To figure out what I wanted and do things for myself! A year ago was a crazy time and had a huge change and trying to figure everything out was not easy. So I made this list to start figuring out what I want to do. So where am I now on my list. Let's find out. 1. get my hair cut - The reason this was on my list b/c a haircut at a salon can be expensive, so this doesn't happen very often. And I have gotten my haircut a few times at a salon! And it was awesome. 2. get a job - check. It wasn't easy and it wasn't my first choice. But it has worked out and I really enjoyed it. 3. buy a house - this will have to wait a while, but def staying on the list. I am doing this one day 4. clean out my car! inside and out! - check. It prob needs to be done again with all the leaves falling. 5. get a pedi - I did get a pedi once. Why only once? Well once I got a job and had the money I never had the time. So the one time Roy come to town and took Westin for 8 days I took advantage and got my pedi! 6. go to the beach - I really wanted to take a little weekend trip to the beach last summer, but it never happened, but this also is staying on the list. I am hoping to go next summer 7. take Westin to his first movie in a theater! - we went and saw Cars 2 and he did really well! I was surprised 8. learn how to play the guitar - I thought this wasn't going to get done and I have really wanted to learn for a while. But oddly the other day I did get a mini guitar lesson. I don't know if I will receive any more, but at least I can say I have actually tried. 9. go to a Saints game - I wen to a Saints game with Jimmie Lynn and we had a freaking blast!!! I will def be making a new list for next year soon!

decision had to be made

Divorce is hard. No matter who's decision it was. In my case it was my decision, but that doesn't make it any easier for me. It doesn't mean that I can just pick up my life and move on from that day forward. There were things that happened that lead to my decision and some of those you can't just get over or move on over night. I am still trying to deal with some things. I still have anger, and resentment and wish badly upon my ex (not really, but kind of lol), but I'm not completely blaming him. These are MY issues that I need to get over and I'm not quiet sure how to do that. Are their steps I need to take? Vengeance I need to taken? Should I take the high school heart break route and burn all photos and clothes that I have of his? I guess it will just take time. And maybe deleting him off my facebook so I don't have to see how much he loves his girlfriend might help. His happiness or lack there of, shouldn't effect my mood or life, but in a way it does and I don't want it to anymore. I need to focus on me and my life and what makes me happy. And not have all those distractions. I am ready to move on and see what single/ single mom life has to offer. So far there have been many up's and down's, but Westin (my son) and I have been having a blast and he always makes my day no matter how crazy he can be on any given day. I just wished, for Westin's sake, that things could of turned out differently. But at some point I had to make a decision of do I want to cont to be so unhappy and miserable or do I want to change what makes me/ my life so unhappy and be happy again and enjoy life again. And that decision has been made.

28 things about me

1. I have a crazy 2 year old. 2. I would love to go on a cruise one day 3. I love the beach 4. I love Margaritas (froze with salt) 5. The only thing I would change about myself (apperence) would be my teeth 6. I love having blue eyes 7. I would like to one day finish my degree (Math edu) 8. I love girl time with Cindy and Cheri 9. I love to scrapbook 10. My fav scrapbook co is Echo Park
11. I am recently going through a rough time (divorse and finding a job) 12. I lovr Happy's Irish Pub 13. I love Happy Hooligans from Happy's 14. I love feeling pretty 15. I love sugar woogers from my Jesse Bear 16. I sleep with my 90 lb lab but make Westin sleep in his bed :) 17. I would love to have another child one day (hopefully a girl) 18. I love Nicki Minaji and Drake 19. fav songs right now are "I'm Blazin" by Nicki Minaji and Kanye West and "Always fall for your type" by Jamie Foxx and Drake 20. I love pasta 21. I love seafood (boiled crabs and crawfish) 22. I love going to the movies 23. My fave movies are Pulp Fiction and The Notebook 24. I love Nick Sparks books 25. I love being a southern La girl! 26. I am VERY stubborn 27. I am very passinate ei emotional lol 28. I love my crazy booga man!

can't buy happiness

Last year was one of my worst years. I am determined to make this year better, but as of now it doesn't seem like it is. Looking for a job is much harder than I thought. Silly me thought all I had to do was look in the wanted ads in the newspaper and send in your resume to the jobs you want to apply for. Well that is what I have been doing and have got little to no calls or interviews! Man! I don't know what I am suppose to do. So 4 months later with no luck. Even tried going to a staffing agency and still got nothing, I am getting pretty desperate. Lowing my standards to waitressing jobs and then my step dad suggest I try Sonic. I worked at Sonic as a skating carhop for many years. Through out high school and most of college. I never wanted to go back there. NEVER! It wasn't that it was a bad job. And at times, I would make good money, but I just felt like I outgrew the job. It was a very nice job to have in high school and through college, but I was really hoping to move forward to something better. But that doesn't look like that is going to happen. If I get a job at Sonic, I know I don't have to stay there forever, but I have my doubts anything will come up since in the last 4 months I haven't found anything. So that scares me that I will be at Sonic longer than I wanted to. Hell, I never thought I would go back. But I am really feeling the pressure to get a job NOW! I can't keep waiting and let another month go by! I just can't. I am tired of never having any money to do anything with my friends or take Westin anywhere, movies, lunch, whatever. Instead I just sit at home and do nothing. I am tired of it. I want to be self sufficient and buy some scrapbook stuff if I want, go to the movies if I want, buy Westin some new clothes and just not have to worry about money! So I had an interview at Sonic today and my stomach turned when he said I would start at $7.50 an hour and not get to carhop for a week or 2 so I can retrain inside. My first thought was, is this a mistake? and my next thought was, wow my lil bro gets paid more than that pushing buggies at Target. I am hoping all this is worth it and I am not making a huge mistake. Only time will tell!